Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Am I a good mother?!

Afternoon Readers!

Do you ever question yourself as a mother? Stupid question! I know we all do. I know for a first time mum, I am new to this, but I like to think I am doing a reasonably good job. So why is it that I constantly question myself? For example, I feel strongly I should be spending every second of the day with Jack playing with him, putting him in the bouncer, giving him tummy time, ensuring he has enough naps etc. I feel guilty if I spend a bit of time on twitter. I feel guilty if I haven't been on his mat playing with him all day. I feel guilty if I haven't taken him out for a walk. Am I hindering his development? I know they say drop the housework etc, your baby is more important. This is true, but does that mean its ok to leave the kitchen in a sh*thole all day? Is it ok to not have part of my life too? I love my son so much, but I cant do everything all in one day. Its really hard work being a mum. I even felt bad doing some washing today, as I had to leave him to play by himself for 30 mins. Have I become really insecure? Or do I need to change my ways? I want the best for him and I am driving myself crazy to ensure I am the best mum ever and really beat myself up. How do I get out of this mindset? I am trying so hard to do everything for him. Maybe I need to take a chill pill. He is a very content baby, maybe I should thank my lucky stars. I am constantly looking for new ways to stimulate him, to help him move on and develop into a great human being. The other day I had a total meltdown because he still isn't rolling yet, and I felt so upset with myself that I hadn't pushed him enough, i hadn't spent enough time with him, or i had bought all the wrong toys for development, or rather not bought them. I felt so defeated.

 I also find it quite stressful when other women really exaggerate about how great their child is. Yes, we are proud as mums, but the constant boasting that  their child has to be better than everyone else really grinds me down. Why are we as women in competition with eachother? We all know what a hard job parenting is and the men don't really have much of a clue as to what we do as they don't spend all day with a little one. So lets all stick together. Is it perhaps everyone else that makes me question my mothering skills and not me?

I would love your input!

Love Ellie x

Monday, 21 July 2014

The start of our weaning Journey - Stage 1

Evening dolls,

I know I said I would wait 6 months, but Jack is nearly 5.5 months, and I got the feeling he was ready for solids as he started wanting an extra bottle of milk a day in the last 2 weeks and was waking up at 4am hungry. I had read a lot on the subject, and was still confused as to how much to give, how many times a day, at what time each day etc.. By following the cow and gate weaning plan, and researching online, I finally found a plan that was easy to follow and understand and it's working well so far.

Week 1

Give all the normal milk feeds, but inbetween feeds, try some solids. Try and do this same time everyday,when baby isn't overtired, or starving hungry. So I've decided to do it around 10:30-11. This  about an hour after a feed and when he has had his morning nap. I also put him in the mamas and papas snug, a bib on,and give him a cup of water at the same time.

Foods tried so far:

Baby Rice
Butternut Squash

Foods to try:

We have been pureeing our own ( mixing with his milk or boiled water which we have varied) and
also using Ella's kitchen pouches. I have also frozen quite a few portions in small plastic food bowls.

I have to say he seemed to prefer the fruits! But I know how important it is he has vegetables so will try a variety. He has also gagged on the occasion,but that's to be expected. Some food went over his chops, some on the floor, some over his hands, but he did swallow some as well, so that's a good start.

Week 2 will be introducing breakfast. I will try a porridge or weetabix morning time, and then move the purée to the afternoon afternoon (veg or fruit). Will update you!

Love Ellie x

Sunday, 20 July 2014

Korres Japnese Rose Body Milk

Evening lovelies,

I have a new Korres obsession! Their products are just so fabulous! After trying their lipgloss, I had ran out of moisturiser so decided to try one of those too! I love anything greek! Korres uses gentle friendly ingredients which makes me feel better about using on my skin.

Normally, I find rose quite an old fashioned scent, but it's quite a light rose, almost more of a creamy floral. It glides on really well and is quite light. When dried, my skin feels very silky. I also love the packaging, very sophisticated. At £10 a tube, not very cheap... I would probably treat myself to this occasionally, but it would be a good treat! Looking to try their santorini collection next. After a longday looking after a little bub and husband, a nice shower and session with this feels like ultimate luxury! Or maybe it's the fact my child has gone to sleep and my husband is worn out ! Ha ha who knows.

Love Ellie x

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Korres Raspberry Liquid Lipstick

Afternoon loves,

Greek beauty brand korres has been on my radar for a while. Known for containing many natural ingredients, Jessica Alba is a big fan of the brand and promotes in her book The Honest life. I bought a lip gloss in shade 54 which is a Fuscia Pink. I am not a lover of lipgloss, but it loved this colour.

This water based lipgloss had a gorgeous raspberry flavour and it went on quite thick, almost like a lipstick . The colour is a dark pinky reddy, almost the colour of a raspberry sorbet. I'm getting more confident trying vibrant colours,as normally I tend to stick to the nudes. I think this would be great for a night out. It cost £15.95 so not cheap,but a must have for every female!

Love Ellie x

Monday, 14 July 2014

Bath & Body Works

Evening all!

Another thing I LOVE about America is Bath &. Body Works. Again,another store we don't have in he UK and I don't even know why. You all know how much I love my beauty products,and bath and body works offer lotions,potions,candles, and more! They don't deliver here either. But recently I discovered I can get their stuff on eBay! I didn't go overboard incase they were fakes, but I ordered one of my favourite things they do - antibacterial hand gel. I have one to compare it to to ensure it's not fake, and sure enough it isn't! The seller frequents America often and brings them back! The once I received today was ' Vanilla Berry Sorbet'.

1. I think the packaging is divine! So pretty  and feminine.
2. The scent is exactly as described. It's much more pleasant than a soapy/antibacterial smell.
3. As a mum, I constantly use hand gel, so this will really come in handy.
4. It cost me £1.99 and free postage.
5. They offer many more interesting editions, including golden apricot, vanilla cupcake , zippy fruit punch, I love Paris,Coastal sun and surf and many more! Infact too many to name. How will I choose which one to go for next?!

I'm after one of their candles now!

Love Ellie x

Friday, 11 July 2014

How profound a mothers love is

Evening All,

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with emotion tonight and flooded with love. I am just so grateful to have this perfect little boy who brings so much sunshine to my life. Until you are a mother, I don't think you realise how much love you have and how protective you become.

 Before I gave birth to my son, I wasn't sure I liked children really. In fact they really annoyed me to be honest. In public with their tantrums,in restaurants and on planes with their screaming. These women who were just obsessed with their babies really got my back up. I thought it was pathetic. I was even a bit smug thinking I'm so lucky I'm not you. I'm so lucky I have money to spend on myself for whatever I want. I'm so lucky I have a flat stomach, no stretch marks and no eye bags. When I became pregnant,I was happy yes. I think because I met my husband, and starting a family is the way forward. I think he instilled a lot of positivity in me, so having a baby seemed a natural progression. During my pregnancy I didn't go crazy buying things, when people asked me if I was excited, I said yeah, but not really believing in my words. I didn't know what to expect to be honest. After loosing a baby , I was apprehensive.

The day I gave birth to my son, something happened. An instant change. Instant love. He was sadly in special care, so all I got was a photo of him until I could see him. As I was numb with all the drugs, I couldn't move, so the hospital made me stay away all day pretty much. I was devastated. I couldn't stop staring at the picture of him and couldn't stop crying. I was desperate to see my little boy. The first time I laid eyes on him, he was in an incubator with wires on him. It was heartbreaking. I knew there and then that he was going to be my world forever. Everyday since, I look at him and my heart melts. He is so precious to me. I would do anything for him. I would die for him. Everything I do, I do it for him. I don't care if I go without.He is my priority. I'm so conscious of ensuring he grows up feeling so happy and loved, as I believe this will turn him into such a confident happy boy. His happiness is all that matters to me.

So when I now see a baby screaming in public, I think poor little guy,horrible to see a little baby so distressed. When I see a screaming toddler in a restaurant, I think poor thing, he's probably tired or bored and wants to be at home. When I see those mums having a picnic together with their babies on a hot day, I think what great women you are,managing to get out the house with your child( as we now what a military operation this is),and ensuring they get fresh air and are stimulated by the beautiful surroundings. When I see a story about child neglect, I get so angry and want to cry for that poor child, and want to adopt them. All babies are so innocent and precious and just want love. I a, so lucky I could conceive and give birth as I know lots of women have difficulties,so I never take that of granted.

Being a mother has made me more patient, caring and understanding, and happy. I am so so happy. So this is dedicated to you Jack.
Love your mummy who will love you forever.

Love Ellie x

Thursday, 10 July 2014

How I'm coping with postpartum hair loss

Afternoon honeys,

Well it appears pregnancy is a hell of a lot longer that 9 months! It takes time for your body to return back to normal. I gave birth in February, and I am still suffering the repercussions. Lets talk about postpartum hair loss which I am currently experiencing.

When I was pregnant, I never developed those shiny, luscious locks. But I didn't get dry, or thin hair either. My hair has always been fairly thick and easy to manage. Anyway, when Jack was about 4 months, my hair started malting BADLY. Every time I brushed it, washed it, or played with it, it has been coming out in chunks. Gradually, its started to just look 'limp' and where the hair is thinning are some slight bald patches. Here's a photograph of how much comes out when I wash it ( and this was one of the better days!).

If you do research, they tell you it should be back to normal by your child's first birthday. Are they kidding?! I know I should get to the doctors to possibly seek a remedy,but every mum knows time is scarce in our busy lives! Here is what I am doing ease it...

1. Don't brush hair you don't have too.
2. Put hair up everyday.
3. Try to cut back on hair washes.
4. Don't use straighteners.
5. Resist the urge to pull at it.

I know that these are obvious, but they do help slightly.I have had to accept it is all part of having a baby. Once you accept it, it gets easier.

Love Ellie x