Sunday, 31 August 2014

Why being a mother is mentally taxing

Afternoon readers,

Hope your enjoying your weekend!

I thought I would write this post because in the last few weeks, everytime I go to bed, it takes me ages to sleep. The reason why? I spend hours in bed thinking about Jack, and have I done a good enough job. I sit there and think about everything we have to do the next day, and re evaluate everything I did that current day, and how I could have done better. For example, am I stimulating him enough? Did I make him happy? Did he get enough sleep? Did he eat well? Are his clothes getting too tight and do I need to go shopping? These things go round and round my head constantly. And I beat myself up because everyday I pretty much think I failed at something, and need to try harder the next day. I am my biggest critic. Physically, Jack doesn't really wear me out. He's a good sleeper night and day. He isn't a difficult baby to look after to be honest. It's just mentally, I really struggle. Everyday I wake up I sit and think, can I do this? Am I cut out for this? When I watch him sleep, it makes me cry at how beautiful he is, and how I never want to let him down. Maybe my confidence as a mother needs to improve? Or does every mum feel this way? I am one of these women that before the baby, I would be asleep within 5 minutes of getting under that duvet! Now, it takes ages, I've had to resort to counting sheep many times, which I really hate because I have to concentrate so hard. I'm hoping that feeling this way is normal, and that I don't need to go to therapy. Would love other mums to give me some insight!

Love Ellie x

20 Facts About Moi

Afternoon lovelies,

After being tagged by the lovely Jess, here are 20 facts about me:

1. I am a Pisces
2. I love New York and have been 4 times
3. I am eBay obsessed
4. I love Food and eat like a horse and have a weakness for macdonalds,kebabs, pizza and thai
5. I am not a big drinker because most of the time I vomit
6. I am a tv addict
7. Hugh Grant once told me to F Off
8. I have worked in Central London for over 7 years in the construction industry
9. I am makeup and beauty product obsessed
10. I was once in the daily mail
11. I love yankee candles and bath and body works candles
12. I am scared of spiders
13. I can understand Italian
14. My Grandma is Maltese and I have been going to Malta since I was little
15. I can't drive
16. I love Gladiolas
17. I love going to a spa
18. I love reading
19. I eat cheese everyday
20. I have never been to a funeral

Love Ellie x

20 Facts About Jack

Afternoon readers!

Inspired by the current posts floating around twitter, I thought I would share with you 20 facts about my baby boy Jack:

1. He is an Aquarius born 11th February 2014
2. He went to Malta when he was 4 months old
3. He sleeps through the night
4. He's been sitting up since 5 months old and rolling since 6
5. He eats 3 meals a day and finger foods
6. He only cries when he is hungry or tired
7. We have been to baby massage, baby sensory, baby yoga, play group, and we start sing and story next week. These classes are important for is confidence
8. His eyes are green-blue
9. He doesn't like water
10. His hair is blondey- ginger
11. He was born via caesarean
12. He still has 4 9oz bottles a day
13. He puts everything in his mouth
14. He is obsessed with grabbing glasses off my face
15. We are going to send him to acting lessons early, because we want him to build confidence from a young age
16. He has a flat head thanks to his daddy lol
17. Still has no teeth
18. Loves porridge and toast
19. Hates avocados
20. Constantly throws his teddies around his cot, resembling an explosion from hamleys

Love Ellie x

Saturday, 30 August 2014

MAC Lipstick ' Sweet & Sour'

Afternoon lovelies,

Hope your enjoying your Saturday! I certainly am! I was in Bluewater the other day meeting a friend, and everytime I walk past the MAC counter I can't resist but have a browse at their lipsticks. Now, not that I am in the market for yet another lipstick, but I couldn't help myself. I was particularly drawn to the peaches/coral/orange ones this time. I picked up ' Sweet & Sour' which is actually on my current wish list.t's creamy peach and part of their 'cremesheen' range. I fell in love. It was gorgeous and really suited my colouring. At the same time I was trying to convince my gorgeous friend to go for something different  and she tends to stick to neutral ones! I suggested Candy Yum Yum ( one of my faves, a neon pink from their matte range), but she was having none of it ha ha. As  ' Sweet & Sour ' is creamy, it layers really well, and has a slight sheen but not glossy. Perfect for everyday use. It retails at £15.50.

Their other similiar colours I've got my eyes on next are Flamingo and SunnySeoul.

Love Ellie x

Thursday, 28 August 2014

Project Conservatory - How to dress a small conservatory

Afternoon gorgeous people,

In January 2014, we had our Conservatory built. Long story, but we have only just kitted it out. It isn't a huge space, but we have managed to make it homely and stylish ( in my opinion!).

View from the Garden

As you can see that the style of this conservatory radiates A LOT of light. Our house can be quite dark in certain parts, so this gives us a light airy room which is highly sought after in a house!

Left Side view

 I think the fresh flowers are imperative! They give it a real feminine touch. To save expense, I would like some decent fake flowers, but I can find any anywhere. They all look so tacky! The sofas were from a Next warehouse, at about £300 each! They are the same, except one is slightly longer. You can also see a bit of dirt, hence the cheaper price. I'm currently awaiting industrial strength fabric cleaner to remove this.

View from the Kitchen

We have part tiles, part oak flooring. This gives the room depth and style. The tiles are slate, and the flooring oak. We were lucky enough to have been given these. We also were given the rug. The coffee table forms part of a garden furniture set, we are looking for a new one at present.I like either mosaic style, or wooden box style. Etsy have some stunning ones, but most of them do not deliver to the UK :-(

View on top of dresser

Another gift - We were lucky enough to receive this hamper from Fortnum and Mason. Once all the food/drinks are consumed, I am going to leave this in here as a storage box. The picnic style will give it that edge.

Yankee Pillar Candle in Vanilla Cupcake

For those of you that know me, I am candle obsessed. I love the look of them, and how their smell diffuses into the air and lingers in the room for hours. I do love Yankee's for their wide range of scents, and their long lasting burn time. I am currently eyeing up Anthropologie ones, does anyone know if they are any good? I also have Bath & Body works ones arriving from the states soon..

So you can see we didnt have much space to work with, but I am over the moon with our additional room!

Love Ellie x

Tuesday, 26 August 2014

Our Weaning Journey - Stage 4

Evening loves,

We have now established 3 meals a day. We have also dropped 2 bottles ( he was on 6 bottles a day). Now apart from his bedtime routine, I took Jack's lead on the day time routine, and it all just fell into place. I think eventually babies do do this.Here is a typical day of what Jack will eat and his routine:

7am - 9oz bottle of Aptamil - follow on milk.


Breakfast - Porridge or Weetabix with a home made fruit purée mixed in ( alternating with natural yoghurt). Plain toast, or with marmalade or Jam.

Nap time - usually about 2 hours.

Mid morning 9oz bottle ofAptamil


Lunch - chicken and vegetables - desert apricot and banana pudding - finger foods include slice of pepper, or cheddar cheese.


Afternoon nap - between 30 mins to an hour.

Mid afternoon 9oz bottle of aptamil.

5pm - Dinner - Cauliflower Cheese and pasta, desert fruit purée, finger foods rice cakes/ raisins or a rusk.

7pm - Bedtime -9 oz bottle of Aptamil.

The health professionals will tell you to get your baby to eat the same as you. Our food can be high in salt, fat, sugar and with spices. Surely you can't give a baby that? Also, in my store cupboard I do have pouches from Ella's kitchen, Heinz, Plum Baby etc. I know they are packaged, but they are organic, and contain goodness. They are convenient if we are out, or if  I don't have any purées left. Health professionals will tell you these are bad. But occasionally, I don't see the harm personally, as Jack is getting a balanced healthy diet from all the food I am making from scratch.

Baby Led weaning

If you read my last post, you will know Jack didn't quite understand what to do with finger foods.Well, trying them daily, Jack is slowly getting used to them and knowing what to do with them. Here is  a list of some finger foods I give him:

Slices of pepper
Slices of cucumber
Rice cakes

I try finger foods at every meal, to get him used to it! If anyone has any other suggestions for finger foods,  let me know as I am running out of creativity!

My next stage on weaning will be introducing  a morning and afternoon snack, and hopefully dropping another bottle somewhere. Babies still need 500-600 ml of milk a day after 6 months,so 2-3 bottles will suffice. I'm kind of glad because I'm bored of sterilising and measuring out powder!

Love Ellie x

Monday, 25 August 2014

Max Factor ' Masterpiece Max' mascara

Afternoon lovelies.

I haven't tried and tested many max factor products. For some reason, they haven't really ever appealed to me. I recently ran out of mascara, and not having time to buy one, I had a rummage through my beauty basket to see what I could find. My beauty basket is a huge basket at the bottom of my wardrobe, full of lotions and potions galore. I dug out this max factor mascara, and gave it a go. It was a gift from a friend a few months back,I have to say the result was impressive. Described as a high impact volumising mascara, this is pretty accurate. It doesn't flake off under the eye either which is a bonus. I really dislike a mascara that is smudged all round the eyes by the end of the day.

As you can see, the lashes look thick, long and defined. This is using about 2 layers. If I really layered it up, this would give a dramatic effect. Another addition to my staple items collection.

This is actually a small sized version, but the full size version retails for £9.99 in boots. 

Overall, I would give this an 8/10!

Love Ellie x